Hello World...

Thank goodness I have those 9 lives...well 8 now.

When I first bought property in Northampton, Massachusetts it was 20 years ago. My family had moved to Massachusetts 5 years prior and I had found a place I truly adored. Northampton had a certain, yet deliberate, quality of artistic arrogance equal to the masses, be it poor or rich...it did not matter. If you became accepted into the Northampton community you were blessed...it was a truly unknown corner of Heaven.

Northampton, Massachusetts is, as it has always been, the ART CAPITAL of the UNIVERSE. IF you are a writer, poet, musician, painter, with any real talent you resume better include Northampton, Massachusetts. This town blossoms with the excitement of Georgetown, DC with the anonymity of the most stringent AA meeting. Every corner of Northampton is haunted with romantic rumors that claw into academia while given pure credence to urban myths the area is famous for. Not only has Northampton been the back drop for movies like "Cider House Rules" and "In Dreams" but it plays real life to it's own rich, sometimes demented, past of music, art, love and academia.

After living in Washington DC for so many years I found Northampton a perfect place to settle down and raise a family. I had a family business in the next town and we were quickly becoming a thriving member of the local Chamber of Commerce. This was truly a young Italian man's dream. After unfortunate circumstances much of this dream of a impeccable Northampton was lost...not only for myself and my family but for most of the Northampton residents and, at the time, store owners. To understand why Northampton went in a different direction you need to understand that much of a cities politics is dictated by the real estate and who controls it. It is hard to name names but Northampton fell victim to a cycle of corporate minded real estate control and a, kind of, Monopoly plagued it's very ownership. Ironically, in 1989 Northampton and Smith College both produced thrier own versions of Monopoly...I know this because I printed the games through my printing company in Hadley MA...SUNRAISE.

I guess, at the time, Northampton had big hopes to become larger than life with the likes of celebrities like Kevin Eastman, co-creator of the Teen Age Mutant Ninga Turtles and the less known music originator Dinosaur Jr. We were in the presence of true artists born from the very streets we walked in every day. Northampton, after the movie companies moved in, went from being Jesus Christ to becoming Jesus Christ Superstar and it was no fault of the city...A city has no consciousness, does it?

Well I would like to be the first one to say WELCOME HOME NORTHAMPTON, MA! I became reintroduced to a city that is going to do it right this time. The city streets quietly bubble with excitement as we enter a new chapter of city pride... a city owned by the people for the people. A place where art is in it's infancy and you may run into Pablo Picasso if you keep your eyes open. A city so rich in education that after a coffee at the local Starbucks you leave with an honorary doctrine in humanity. A geographic anomaly where contradiction is constant and consistency belongs to the contributing citizens. The citizens are nothing less than street scholars with an education perfect in it's balance academic certification and street doctrine. I sleep well knowing the works of art that reside at Northampton's Smith College Art Museum...a museum equal to that of the Hirshorn in Washington DC, are safe and protected. I love my city and she loves me back.

Thanks for the Invite!

Dear Rabbit, It is a pleasure to be a part of the Ball.  Thank you for accepting my user.  I look forward to contributing.

Linda

Just In Case

Three very simple words with so much importance. I truly believe the difference in victory over failure is how many "Just in Cases" you created along the way. What is a "Just in Case"? I like to see them as alternate universal victory insurance. When you set a goal to acquire something better, be it a relationship, car, job, losing weight, etc., it is a good idea to create a plan to accomplish the goal. In so many cases, when someone creates a plan to a victory they make the plan one way with no exceptions. The "do or die" attitude. But just as big and scary as the goal seems, the journey getting there can be just as intimidating. When planning the steps to accomplish your goal you need to be flexible and allow yourself to have several paths to accomplishing it. If you are trying to lose weight and you end up in a KFC eating a 6 piece fried chicken meal, you NEED to make that part of your path. Even though many would see this episode as a failure in losing weight, see it as a victory. You have to as most do not take failure very well. If you are able to see meaning in every small failure encountered on your way to the top, then I guess these failures are more like steps getting there...Well, JUST IN CASE.

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Kindness and Planning

Being a kind person is a very underestimated gift. Many see a kind act as a sacrifice and tend to miss the greater meaning. The act of giving is never selfless as reciprocation is always an incentive to some degree. For instance, if I were on my way to the next town to pick something up for myself, why not pick something up for someone else? This sounds like a simple concept but most people are not listening to those around them who do need something picked up in the next town.

I usually take my coffee at the local Starbucks in my town. I am constantly going back and forth from the towns around me getting things done and if I am planning a trip that day I will see if anyone needs anything on my way. With all the great folks I encounter at my morning coffee I am always hearing how one guys needs this and someone else needs that. If I am able to get it done for them on my way it is really not that difficult to do. This type of planning and cooperation is rarely seen in modern society. So many people are on their computers and cell phones that they do not hear what the people around them are saying. I just think it is important to listen and help out where you can.

With a little planning in advance and a good notebook to keep track I am able to get much more done and help a few guys on the way.

Just some food for thought

Rabbit

Northampton Cares

Northampton, Massachusetts has been dubbed "the Paradise of America" by the Swedish Nightingale, Jenny Lind. Northampton is located along the banks of the scenic Connecticut River in Western Massachusetts. Northampton is recognized as a top rated town for our distinctive downtown, arts and culture, families, education, historic preservation, and outdoor activities. An idyllic community to live, work, do business, and visit!

Sorry for my brief absence

Over the last week I have been very busy with some of my own projects which have made it difficult to post on the blog. I intend to answer the accumulated inquiries within the next day or so. Thanks for your continued support and Godspeed!

There is a serious problem with space and time.

Have some ideas that I will get to later but I just wanted to put that out there for now...There is a serious problem with space and time.

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall

I hope all are well.  I am assuming that FOX and KANGA are doing well with their progress thus far and I look forward to their next letters.  The other letter I am receiving I will get to asap.  Tonight I want to talk about something near and dear to me, TRUTH.

Albert Einstein said "If you are out to describe the truth, leave elegance to the tailor."

and that quote really speaks volumes. Truth is a very big word, for only 5 letters in conjures up an infinite picture of endless meaning. In many respects the word truth has become more of a contradiction to it's basic meaning. The dictionary initially defines truth as the true or actual state of a matter. In it's later description is calls truth an ideal or a fundamental reality apart from and transcending perceived experience. Between the two descriptions one finds plenty of room for justification...loopholes that twist it's meaning to be more consistent with the truth they choose to believe.

Strangely enough humans have found a unique ability to take 5 letters that make something as plain and easy to understand as "the true or actual state of a matter" and create a SCRABBLE BUILDER mental machine that can not only switch around the letters but add letters and meaning to serve their particular purpose. Truth is giving someone, even yourself an accurate description of what is plain and simply the facts without prejudice or ego. This proves to be quite a challenge for us, we sometimes would rather believe what we see in the mirror is the truth and what we hear in our minds are lies. As a matter of fact, the meaning of truth has been so stretched and entangled with the countless misinterpretations of a mental and physical site that is appears to look more like a three letter word...LIE.

I have always been VERY DYSLEXIC and whenever I type the word believe I usually misspell it as beleive and when I type the word belief I tend to type beleif...what is the problem here? I have a very big issue, as my spelling reflect, with the word LIE being a part of the word BELIEF as it is a constant contradiction. BE-LIE or BE-LIE-ev. In my heart I love that the name EVE is present in the word but it kills me to think the word LIE is attracted to something as fundamental as the Mother of Creation. I am so infatuated that the word BE begins these words but it is a personal abomination that LIE lives in the middle. If you feel this is a lesson in linguistics than you are correct. But just as the word BELIEVE has three parts so does my point.

One is the language of what we see, what we perceive and how we express it. Two is the point that it is not our fault that we no longer can see what TRUTH, reality, or the fundamental letters spell a very easy to understand concept. But 3, most importantly, is that belief and truth are so closely tied that it is impossible to say one with out the other following suit.

So we find ourselves looking in a mirror and the reflection we see we can no longer trust. It is so entangled and layers with misspellings, misinterpretations, justifications, and every other color not belonging to it. Quite frankly we can no longer trust what we see right in front of our eyes.

My dear friend, Malidoma Patrice Some, said this:

The blind man had two eyes
That saw things that moved
And things that did not move.

He thought he was not blind
And was proud to see,

But when asked to see the moving
In the thing that does not move
He decided he was blind.

His eyes would not believe
That the still was not still
And that the moving could cease
Because the only thing
the moving knew
Was move, move and move

Seeing had become blindness
And that which does not move
Knows you lie to yourself
When you lend trust to
what you see now.

It is vital that we take to heart the meaning of truth. We need to truly open our eyes and see what is right in front of us and describe it with accuracy. Many view me as a religious man while other say I am gifted in math and physics, I am neither, I am RABBIT. Seeing myself in the mirror is difficult at times as when I see what is reflected I see some very scary things. I see a world of pollution, I see an education system that has failed our children, I see religious factors who have taken the fundamental meaning of the very book they trust, the Bible, and become blind by human complexity to it's true simplicity, I see many things when I look into the mirror and I take full responsibility for all of these things. I am the one who cased the wars but I am also the one who created peace, I am the one who wrote so many bad, incorrect versions of knowledge but I am also the one who contributed to it's fundamental meaning, I am the child who was told he could change the world, but I am also the man who was told he couldn't. I am all of these things and with that realization I saw RABBIT. Does this mean I am God? Yes, it does! BUT and there is a very big BUT to this, this means I am the DEVIL too. What a realization, huh? But it did does not END there. When I finally looked into that mirror and accepted responsibilities for this entire universe, good and bad I realized something else....ANOTHER IMPORTANT PART OF TRUTH....I realized that you are GOD too. You are both all good and all evil, you are responsible for all memorials, victories, wars and solidarity's. YOU are all powerful but until you see yourself in truth you will seem insignificant, you will constantly crave something you will never reach. Until you see yourself in the absence of factors that distort the fundamental vision of the present STATE OF MATTER you will only see versions of the truth that will constantly make you feel smaller and the universe become larger. Until you can accurately SEE the word truth you will be looking at life through glasses that disguise you you truly are...GOD.

If this realizations scares you, as it does many, then you on the right frequency, you are starting to see some clarity to the vision. For the time being believe half of what you see and NONE of what you hear...Even if it is spat by me. Self realization, as close to perfect as it can be is only maintained by 3 rules. Those two rules are very simple and with the acceptance of the 3 laws you become empowered with the creative powers of the universe but ironically the rules limit your inability, as a human, to keep things in focus. The first law is that you can NEVER TELL ANYONE YOUR GOD, this is why it is vital to tell and treat every other individual as GOD. Giving the gift only empowers it's meaning. The second rule is you can not mess with FREE WILL. You can talk to someone, teach them, be patient with them, encourage them, perform for them but you can NEVER make them take what you are offering. It is up to them to take what they feel it right for them. Reminding them that they are GOD will help them take only the things worthy of such a great being. Reminding them of their shortcomings, holding them hostage to their mistakes, gossiping about them to make yourself feel better about your own shortcomings, any of these tactics aimed at manipulating FREEWILL will only serve to FREE you of your own WILL. When you go for a job interview you want is makes more sense to dress well, speak well, represent yourself well to get that job....What would be the point of pointing out all of the employers mistakes? Will that get you what YOU WANT? No!

The last, but most important law is the number THREE. The number 3 intoxicates us with words like TRINITY, TRIANGLE, MAGIC, etc. it is what is called a MANIFORD in mathematics and any number that proceeds it causes KAOS to the entire mathematical structure. Three, in short, is very powerful and the third law follows a reflection of equal intensity. The 3rd law is FORGIVENESS.

Not everyone sees their true reflection, not you or I, no one. We can only hope to see the truth in it's most prime factor but as humans we tend to add to the equation. In our addition we tend to put things there that do not belong there. We can only hope that we are able to see truth as accurately as possible but as fallible human beings we often fall short. To the degree that we fall out of focus is without time or distance, it is only a reflection of how much we have complicated it's meaning. I can tell you till I am blue in the face that you are BLUE but until you really see you are BLUE you will only see RED. The only way to see that you are not RED but BLUE is by looking at yourself with complete TRUTH. When you do you will see that not only you were lieing to yourself but I too lied, you are certainly CLEAR. The only reason you could even think you were some color is because you plopped some paint on yourself and pretended you were something you where not. Why did you choose to cover your pristine clear image with paint? That answer is simple, you wanted to disguise yourself. Some where disguises to help the world sing, dance, draw, learn, etc. while others put on a costume to hide from the layers of paint that are just below the surface.

Who would want to be CLEAR? We want the truth with the elegance of the gifted tailor. We learn at a very young age to dress up, to pretend, to, in the most beautiful way, paint our clearness with the most beautiful paint. Where did we start adding the crappy colors? I suppose the same place we learned to paint the boogie man, satan, the reaper and every other nightmare that SCARED us out of our primal infancy of beautiful creation. Somewhere along the way we were scared into hiding in the paint, somewhere along the way we forgot we were clear, someone told us at one point we were everything and they took that back. In the first steps out of our CLEAR creation we were told we were GOD, along the winding road we were lied to and convinced we were less than that. How long will we cover the word truth with paint of ignorance born of confusion? When will there be so much paint on the clear surface that it finally can hold no more and all of the evil mistruths come true? Damn, people are dying to get the answer, QUITE LITERALLY!

How hard is it to forgive? How hard is it to see a painting on glass as something that can be wiped clean and recreated? Windex is not that expensive, is it? Neither is forgiveness. If someone has failed you or themselves, If someone has painted pictures, that may appear evil to you, and they present these paintings with pride, whether that pride is of pain and suffering or pride of ego, you must value that painting with the same value that the painter did. If someone has come to you for help, if someone recognized they may have not created the best paintings and they trust you will not see them for their art but their canvas, you must forgive them and help them paint the most beautiful picture you can.

Remember, the pictures you see around you can be tainted by the lies you tell yourself. If you want to see Heaven all around you, you too need to see Heaven in every one. The most accurate picture we can make of the word TRUTH is seeing it in 3 ways, 1. GOD 2. WILL 3. FORGIVE.

Remember, there is always GOD who is above, below and around you. So as you create in your universe, as GOD, remember that GOD always has a hand on your back.

Another Visit from FAX

FOX SAID: Hi Rabbit, this is Fox again. I just thought I would give you an update on one of my goals on the Alpha Blade program. My weight loss.

Around 3-4 weeks ago when my fiance and I broke up, I decided to weigh myself. When I looked at the scales I was not happy with what I saw. I was 109kg, the heaviest weight I have been in my life.

I decided from that point on that I am not going to live the unhealthy life I have been living. I need to lose this weight.

Anyway, over the past few weeks I have been trying to eat healthy and trying to get a little bit of exercise in every now and then. So far I have lost 6.1kg and I now weigh 102.9kg.

My goal weights are either 80kg lean or 87kg with good muscle definition. I am hoping you will be able to give me some tips on achieving that.

RABBIT: The word TRY is another word for fail. Trying leaves open justifications to fail. Why would we leave a justification to fail when we want something so badly? It seems self-defeating but it is really just a way to remain consistent with the comfortable way things are. I made a commitment to stop smoking yesterday but when I came to midnight of today, the day I said I would quit, I noticed how I left the loophole of time open so I could smoke until midnight this evening and still accomplish my goal but sadly this loophole was only a creative way to lie to myself and allow me to continue smoking. Even though I have a picture in my mind of me being free of cigarettes it still had backdoors that allowed me to escape from making the change.

Justifications are pure fear. Fear keeps us hostage in the current moment of dissatisfaction. For all time cultures have told us that desire and sadness are the root of suffering. Desire, in my case is the comforting, pacification of smoking and the sadness I feel is a reflection of my greatest attempt at change, trying. It takes a very strong soul to make a commitment to change. As good as the change is for us the journey to it becomes a timely sufferance.

Stopping smoking is something that takes no time at all. It is a decision of mind and the benefits that follow this choice are ones of greatness, just like losing weight but according to a very old law of nature, alchemy, gaining one state of being only comes at the departure of another. Saying goodbye to anything we own, good or bad, weight or smoke, is difficult as it will be gone forever and the birth of the new life takes time to reach maturity so, just like a new born, the education, commitment and love it takes to maintain that child until they are independent sometimes supersedes the very being of desired maturity.

Saying goodbye to your extra weight is hard to understand in it's current model but sometimes a comparison is in order. Here is a fable I wrote that may get the point across easier. Enjoy the painting too!

Yenny is a very poor artist. She needs money so desperately, it would literally save her life. The pain of what surrounds Yenny is that of poverty, struggle, ignorance and destitution. If Yenny could only find a way to make money she could solve all of her suffering. Yenny has been working on a painting for 3 years now, She paints this picture everyday with ferocity. It feeds her soul in so many ways that the painting becomes a source of psychological survival. She shows people her painting and people take opinion on it. Good and bad opinions only serve to inspire Yenny to adding new energy and matter to her work. The painting goes with her everywhere are she will add to it in a moments notice. She feels pain, she adds a flower, she feels joy, she draws some leaves, she feels sorrow, she blackens the dirt, she sees a baby and she adds a bud with seeds, she gets ridiculed, she adds a rose, she feels trapped and she begins to add thorns. Yenny's painting is a great collection of flowers, leaves, branches, water and dirt. In the center of this painting is Yenny herself, a young child wading chest high in the water. This painting is incredibly beautiful even though it was created from millions of emotions and events. Yenny painted sounds and light, she painting life and death, she literally painted her universe. One day, as she sat in a park adding to her painting a man named Armand came along. Armand has watched Yenny paint this picture for 3 years now but never said anything to Yenny. He only watched from a distance and saw this painting transform to a more perfect state of beauty. Armand took great value in Yenny's creation and approached her asking if she would sell this magnificent painting. He offered her so much money that Yenny could change every wrong that was in her life. She could change these things overnight is she sold Armand the painting. Yenny held the painting so close to her heart and said that she could not sell it because it meant so much to her. Armand thought for a moment and told Yenny he understood. Being a very wealthy man Armand told the young girl, you own that painting for you created it. Every stroke of that painting is built on another and asking you to part with it may seem that I am asking you for your soul. Yenny looked at this great man and said, but how can my soul be a painting, it is only paper and ink. Armand told Yenny she could keep the painting and if she only created a quick sketch of it and he would pay just as much money but he wanted to show her something first. Yenny quickly scribbled a pencil version of the painting on a new piece of paper. She handed the picture to Armand and he pulled a great diamond from his pocket, one that was priceless and perfect. As he held it up to the light it reflected everywhere and Yenny was mesmerized. Armand looked at the sketch and took Yenny by the hand. He said, "I will give you this diamond, which will solve all of your problems, I only ask that you take a look at something first. Yenny was puzzled, she asked the man why he would give her a diamond so glorious for a sketch of a painting? WHat was it that he wanted her to see? Armand took Yenny by the hand and walked down to a great lake that was just below the park. He asked Yenny to hold the painting up to herself and look at the reflection in the water. He said that if she did this he would give her the diamond for the sketch and he would be on his way. Yenny eagerly agreed. She held her great painting up to her self and looked at the reflection in the lake only something was missing. There was no painting, she only saw herself. Her body was decorated with many paints, inks and colors of all kinds but no canvas was visible. Armand gave Yenny the diamond and put the sketch in his pocket. As he was walking away he yelled to Yenny "Your painting is one of near perfection, now jump in the lake and wash yourself clean for you are now a wealthy woman"

RABBITS TIME MACHINE...

I would not expect you to do anything I would not do so I decided to join KANGA in his goals. My goal is to stop smoking cigarettes also. I am not stopping because I do not like to smoke as I love to smoke but cigarettes seem to have a hold on me that is far beyond anything I enjoy. I love the oral fixation of the cigarette and the smoke that mysteriously billows from it but I do not enjoy the price or the dependency cigarets deliver. I want to smoke a pipe, something big and fancy with a cherry smelling tabacco. I want to be able to have the pipe in my mouth as much as possible without the urge to light up every 10 minutes. My transformation will be tonight too. In the AM on 08.08.08 I will no longer smoke cigarettes.

Here is an auction I am bidding on for my new pipe: DARE TO PRETEND

Enjoy the slide show. I will make a movie of me poking a hole in the page in the morning and have it up by mid-day.

Peace

RABBIT

Make a Smilebox slideshow

MEET KANGA and TRY THE TIME MACHINE

KANGA: Hello, My name is Kanga, I am 38 years old male and now into my second marriage.  My first marriage lasted about 7 years and I have a daughter who is 10 from that marriage.  I get along great with my ex wife and we have a great relationship. 

  My current marriage has lasted 7 years so far and we have a son.  We have a very open marriage as far as communication goes.  We have a few deal breakers though---any sort of abuse--physical, verbal or emotional.  Or any sort of cheating.  Those will end the marriage.   We have very open discussions about sex and she also helps with my PE.  She and I both feel that what happens in our bedroom is none of no one's business and she will do most anything to please me.

   I am from a middleclass/comfortable background.  My wife and I have steady income but we are not rich or well off by any means.  We both work hard and we both share the same financial goals as well.

  My problems are almost all physical.  I want to stop smoking, lose weight, and increase the size of my penis through PE.  I know all are possible as I have achieved short term gains in all three areas but then I always lose focus or get lazy when I try to combine more than 2 of the goals from above----examples

  I am 220 pounds and 5'11.  I have weighted as little as 175 just 6-7 years ago.  My max weight was 240.

  I stopped smoking for 6 months.  I smoke about a pack aday and I quit for 6 months last year.  I have smoked for 21 years.  I attempt on average 1 major quit a year which usually last a month or so.

  I am very insecure about my penis size as well.  I am currently 5.5x5.5  At one time I was 7x6 but this was after a very intense PE program of 6 months while my wife was away in Iraq.  I was really into my PE workouts everyday during that time---I also only weighed 190 at that time as well.

I am also very insecure about my penis size for 2 reasons---

    1.  I was sexually abused for a short time when I was a kid.  The person was a family friend and it only happened a few times.  Even though I am emotionally over that part.  The one thing that has stayed with me is that I was told--"you have such a small pee-pee".

  2.  My wife has not had an orgasm in a little over 2 years.  This is due to some very complicated medical/physical issues concerning pregnancy and bearing a child.  Sex hurts since the birth of our son and because of that she would have sex just to please me but would try and get it over quickly.  Even though I know the medical and physical facts behind this, I am still affected by this because I feel inadequate that I can't make her orgasm.

  These all seem tied together to me but I can't seem to tackle all three.  I can't exercise too much because I get winded due to the smoking and they both are tied to PE.  I also have horrible craves for food when I try to quit smoking.  Anything sweet.  Especially chocolate.  Cakes, candy, ice cream, cokes, anything sweet.  I also don't drink near enough water.  I feel like I will never be able to tackle all 3 problems so I give up whenever I try one and see success--go figure.  Or I try one and then give it up to start another then give up---I quit smoking for a month or so and then I start to exercise but then get depressed again over the smoking so I fall back into the same cycle.


 1.  I want to finally quit smoking for good.  I know it is possible, I just can't get my head there

 2.  I want to go from 220 down to at least 180.

 3. I want to get my penis size to my old size and then perhaps even larger.

Thank You

Kanga


PS. Also--please let me know if you got the latest donation.  I wanted to be sure it worked.

  I spoke to my wife tonight and I told her I might fly to Boston sometime to see you and maybe help with the Alpha Blade project----I know I shouldn't invite myself but I wanted to let you know That I might be available for a weekend if you need hand during production or anything. Let me know

RABBIT: Hello Kanga!  Thanks for the letter and I am sure that your decision to join the Alpha Blade Community will make your transitions for easy.

I got your donation and every penny helps me do my work...I appreciate it deeply.  I would love to see you in 4 weeks when every goal you have has been accomplished.

Your goals are that you want to quit smoking, become 180 pounds and regain your maximum sexual size. These goals when really examined are very simple to acquire. As a matter of fact I can see this happening in no time at all as it has already happened. When someone is aware that they occupy a body that does not belong to them it feels wrong, it does not correspond to the mental picture they hold in their mind. This is actually a better place to be than someone who occupies the wrong body and fails to realize it. These people have a skewed mental picture of who they are and the body they dwell in, all be it wrong, seems to be where they believe they belong. In the latter, those people find it impossible to lose weight, quit smoking, correct sexual issues, etc. Since they feel as though the body belongs to them they will continue to live as such, doing all the right things to maintain it.

The mind is a very small but vast place. It holds extreme powers of creation and the product of it's creation is the reality that surrounds us in a world just as vast and small. For some, changing the world is an impossibility because they still see there small mind as being impossible to change but to someone who is able to change their body with such ease because their mind is so vast, well the world become so small that it is easy to change. Matters of size have always been the haunting and the inspiration behind changing the great or small.

We perceive matter, things like body size, cars, homes, countries, planets, etc. as being very disconnected from the energy that animates their being. Energy is nothing more than the other side of mass but what makes it "matter" is the fact that we do have a saying in how the energy is used and where it goes. With that said it puts each of us in a very powerful position. When we realize that we not only have the ability to create matter, but we are truly the source of it's life via the energy we so generously give it, then we have taken responsibility for not only the good and bad of who we may perceive ourselves as but the good and bad that is part of our universe.

Being a creator is a gift each one of us has. It has always been but this power of creation has been so analyzed and dissected by the modern mind that it has become practically impossible to see, let alone use. Today when something happens to someone that is good they tend to call in luck. This puts the receiving of the good thing into uncertainty of it's origin. We have been so confused by the vast library of knowledge that has tried to correctly identify this ability to create that it has now become an ability only held by those smart enough to read through all of the billions of descriptions to it's instruction or those dumb enough to see it in it's simplify...I am the latter. Ironically, my original inception of my abilities to create came out of my inability to understand the complexity of the libraries of knowledge. Strangely enough, when I realized the gift of creation I realized I never needed to know all of the knowledge of creations description, I already knew it....I always new it, I only forgot. Once I started to remember I am the creator, I realized that each and every physical reality not only belonged to me but I had full abilities to change it for the better.

Each of us is instilled with the abilities of the creator. You too Kanga are the creator and the weight of your universe, being so heavy at times, but oh so precious, belongs to you and it is your job to make it as beautiful as you can with the infinite power you possess. I could easily tell you that you should think small and you have no affect on the world but that would be lying as the truth is your affect is much smaller than that, your power comes from the largest place, your mind and it affects the smallest place, your universe. The tools of change are the matter that surrounds you and the energy you use to animate it. Losing 40 pounds of weight is not so hard when you realize the weight of the universe is in your mind.

So where do we start? You have shown me a very vivid picture of your universe and it seems like a very beautiful one, perfect in many ways. Which parts of this picture do you want to erase? What things would you like to add? If I would make these changes as fast as possible. Tomorrow is 08-08-08, this seems like a good place to restart your universe fresh and as close to perfect as you can. Tonight I would like you to get a sheet of paper. On one side of the paper I want you to right the date at the top (08-07-08) and on the other side of the paper I want your to right the date (08-08-08). One side should be upside down from the other side as in the picture. Fold the sheet down the middle and draw a black dot at the center of the sheet. Now I want you to draw your life as it is today on the 7 size and draw your life as it is on the 8 side. The only difference between the two sides is on one you are before your goals and the other you are after your goals. Tonight fold the page and keep a pen with you by your bedside. When you go to sleep this evening I want you to retire with full intention to be at your goals in the morning. When you awaken on the 8th I want you to unfold the sheet and poke a hole from one side into the other and push the pen through. The pen should go from the 7th to the 8th. WHen you pull the pen from that side of the paper I want you to right 1. The 1 will represent your first goal accomplished, you will be someone who only fills his lungs with air. Over the next thirty days I want you to do this ritual every morning. I can see you on the 8th of September as a 180 pound, healthy physically and sexually correct.

Making a physical picture that serves function will allow you to make these mental changes in no time...like a fold or hole in time. Go buy some gum or lolipops:)

We will talk more as you go further into the Bunny Hole:)

Rabbit

I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM

I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM

FOX TODAY: The doctors then prescribed me a much larger dose of Lexapro and also prescribed me a strong dose of Xanax. The worst thing I ever did, in my opinion, was allow the doctor to prescribe me those drugs.

I became a zombie and during all this time I got made redundant from my job I then struggled to even look for work or get up in the morning. I hated what I was becoming but at the same time, i didn't even care.

I stopped caring about my health, my job, my fiance and pretty much anything else in my life at the time. I put on lot's of weight, I got another good job but then lost it because I didn't care, my plans to build my own house with my fiance fell through, my fiance ended up cheating on me because I didn't treat her how she should be, etc, etc.. Everything in my life fell apart and it all came about because of my "depression".


RABBIT: I have always believed that the only way a person could mentally diagnose another person is by being in the same mental state as the patient. Now, even if a doctor is a person suffering with OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) [or any other mental illness] and treats a patient with the same diagnosis there is still a major flaw in determining diagnosis because an original diagnosis would have had to be made on the doctor before he could deem himself an obsessive compulsive and that diagnosis was from another doctor. The loop is endless in a game of "who came first? the chicken or the egg?" but this story comes with a lesson.

If all definitive, mental diagnosis come from a book called the DSM4 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders), then who wrote the book? This may awaken some anger in those who truly believed their disorder was "real" but unfortunately it is perceived. Worse yet, perceived by someone that is not you! This manuel is filled with every mental disorder known to man and every word is written by a person with an independent consciousness than you. He or she may be basing their final editing on a incorrect assessment of any particular disorder. When we add up this seemingly, endless math of written diagnosis and who wrote it we end up with just that, and endless equation of infinite paths. This should awaken someone's voice next time they speak with their psychiatrist. THE QUESTIONS ARE INFINITE

I stated in another BLOG that It is very scary that someone who is not me can tell me who I am. Stranger is that we do identify ourselves with any external influence we find powerful from medical diagnosis to learned religion. A vulnerable, human mind is highly impressionable, and when we find ourselves in a difficult situation we sometimes run off to see the Psychiatrist. After the doctor spends 25 minutes observing you, where you may be going through a temporary phase that will correct itself (as many people do), she decides you have depression (or some other name-tag mental illness). You, who may be misdiagnosed, begin to be educated about your "new" disorder through literature and books. You also start taking different psych meds prescribed for a possibly, misdiagnosed state.

This may apply to you FOX or not but the lesson is a good one. When we are going through difficulties and looking for serious answers to a question as powerful as "Who am I?" we are opening our souls to the trusted responders answer. We seek the answer so desperately that when we get the answer we better hope it is a positive one because we will take it to heart, take it to soul, take it to mentality and very quickly take it to reality. The minute the doctor diagnosed you he answered your question and to show how this model works I will illustrate the situation the way it may have been for you as it was and is for many.



The second people are given a diagnosis and state it as "I AM Depressed" or any other work that precedes I AM, they immediately start to personify the actual WORD. In many cultures this "method" is used in meditation and affirmation for a more Godly state. In the Alpha Blade Program we use this "method" of I AM to create what is called the "ALPHA STATE". The mantra is "I AM Eternal and Infinite, Loving and Strong, I AM perfect in all ways, I am the creator of my universe." The value of this mantra is universally powerful. It uses the 2 most prime words to declare your person oneness. Your Alpha Being. Those who use Alpha Blade and use it's tools, like the ALPHA MANTRA already know it's infinite power and how it has created very perfect moments in your life. How it has attracted each and every datum of your desires to you like a magnet. The mantra is without time or any other measurement of confusion...it is simple and clear...You state who you are and you do become this being...

With that said if you declared a negative mantra, of sorts, like "I AM Depressed" you have too made a loud and clear statement, to the universe, that you are DEPRESSED. Therefore, following all laws of nature, the universe aligns itself in such a way that you start to create matter in your world that takes on lives of their own. This process not only follows the laws of physics in magnetism, conservation of energy and the law of information but it seems to go beyond some of these laws and time itself becomes questionable. I mean, if you declared "I AM Depressed" and that message went out to the universe it would only follow that you would get all of the matter associated with that statement. Things like poor health, suffering relationships, lack of energy, job issues, sexual issues, the list goes on. My biggest discovery in all my work in Alpha Blade, one that is both good or bad, is that time is highly illogical, even non-existant when it comes to things like magnetism, information, transformation of energy, etc. It seemed as though you were able to take your life from Excellent to Terrible very quickly (time wise) You changed who you were immediately by announcing, to the universe but even larger than the universe, yourself, "I AM Depressed" and you defied all laws of time and light when with the "speed of thought" you created your current world.

The good side of this coin is that you can see the power of your WORD and use that power to RE-STATE who you are. With all your experience and successes in your life, who better qualified for the job?

My goals in part of my work in the psychiatry of Alpha Blade is to teach, trough example, methods of creating the persona you deserve. One you have always wanted, one that embodies all of what you dream to be. Understanding that your Persona was developed instantaneously without knowing when the doctor told you that FOX was really DEPRESSED, think how quick it would be for you to change your persona knowing you are creating it? FOX,you immedietly starting manifesting physical realities as soon as you said "I Am DEPRESSED" You instantly created relationships, jobs, health, etc. that matched that profile. Imagine being aware of who you are and then getting the things you desire?

This case of FOX is very real and, just like anyone who joins this site, FOX will exemplify the power of Alpha Blade, in essence teaching anyone who is watching.

Join In Folks

Rabbit

Fox Yesterday and Today

If there is a point A in time and a point B in time 

both exist simultaneously at the edge of a black hole.

Essentially, time does not exist. 

Getting from A to B was NEVER SO EASY!

FOX Yesterday: Just over a year ago I had everything I wanted. I had a good high paying job, I had the girl of my dreams, I had my health, and I was in a very happy place with everything(or so i thought).

FOX TODAY: All of a sudden I got hit with "depression". I don't know how it came about but I felt like I was losing my mind and going insane for no reason at all. The doctors first prescribed me Lexapro for the depression and at first I thought "yes, this is working, i'm fine" etc. However my depression actually became worse and my anxiety increased greatly.

RABBIT Always: I went from one moment to the next in these paragraphs and I will able to see only a very short space. I realized that you could have been referring to a span of 2 days or 2 decades. My point is that once we take time completely out of the equation we are left with a very short, or long, distance between two points. I could easily print out this letter and fold it right between the paragraphs and both paragraphs would exist at one point. If it were two pictures I could put them on top of one another and they would too exist at one point. Imagine for a second that the two pictures were printed on a translucent film and you put them together, they not only would exist at one point but the combined picture, if properly dissected, would contain all the secrets to how you can make one picture become the other. Aside from simply tracing the picture you want, you could add and take away as you perfected it.

If you really tried you could write a instruction manual with very good details, diagrams and instructions to just how you created both pictures and someone could read that instruction manual and create what you created in a fraction of the time it took you. This is not so different than the inventor Archimedes, a mathematician and inventor from ancient Greece who discovered the mathematical equation for pi. Through his experience in mathematically identifying Pi he was able to create the screw driver. The screw driver, although very easy to get, make and understand is only so easily accessible because of Archimedes difficult journey to understanding Pi.

Archimedes is not so different from you FOX. You can easily buy a manual to his life and in record speed create what he created. You too could create the manual to your "perfection" very quickly as you have already lived it. With a few easy steps you can put together your picture of perfection once again...You already have.

Happy Every Now and Then

The Rabbits Nose

FOX: "Just over a year ago I had everything I wanted. I had a good high paying job, I had the girl of my dreams, I had my health, and I was in a very happy place with everything(or so i thought)."

RABBIT: Time is a very strange thing, in one moments we see a beautiful picture and the next time we look it appears ugly.  Success would be only a reflection of making each moment as close to the original moment of perfection we have perceived in experience.  

Your picture one year ago was one of happiness, health and abundance.  If I could assume, you were at what you believed to be as close to a perfect moment as you could. That moment, or picture was a very real existence.  It was something you could hear, touch and feel and therefore you have a distinct impression in your mind of what it looked like.  If you really tried I bet you could describe tastes, smells, sounds, emotions so clearly that I could see a very accurate picture of where you were one year ago.



  

I further wager that you are at least 20 times the age of the time it took to go from picture A.) You perfect moment to picture B.) Your current moment.  I assume, from your letter, you are in your late twenties, if so, then it took 29 years to reach your moment of perfection and about 1 to reach your moment of NOW.  The moment you experienced one year ago was created from about 29 years of experience.  You reached that very moment by observing your current moments, seeing the places you could perfect them and doing so.  So the moment of near perfection, last year, is a collective picture of 29 years of life.  

Since you have already created this picture you already know how you did it.  Your experiences are the very tool to recreate it.  What is even better is that the last 12 months served to teach you well.  You were shown the exact opposite of your version of perfection which will allow you to not only contrast your wants and desires with greater light, but do it with the speed of your years of experience. 

I will tackle the second paragraph of your letter later.  I look forward to helping you help yourself.

The FOX and the RABBIT: Another ALPHA BLADE participant

Hi Rabbit,

This FOX another one of your sites. Just thought i'd send my story to you directly as well so that I can become a part of your Alpha Blade program.

Just over a year ago I had everything I wanted. I had a good high paying job, I had the girl of my dreams, I had my health, and I was in a very happy place with everything(or so i thought).

All of a sudden I got hit with "depression". I don't know how it came about but I felt like I was losing my mind and going insane for no reason at all. The doctors first prescribed me Lexapro for the depression and at first I thought "yes, this is working, i'm fine" etc. However my depression actually became worse and my anxiety increased greatly.

The doctors then prescribed me a much larger dose of Lexapro and also prescribed me a strong dose of Xanax. The worst thing I ever did, in my opinion, was allow the doctor to prescribe me those drugs.

I became a zombie and during all this time I got made redundant from my job I then struggled to even look for work or get up in the morning. I hated what I was becoming but at the same time, i didn't even care.

I stopped caring about my health, my job, my fiance and pretty much anything else in my life at the time. I put on lot's of weight, I got another good job but then lost it because I didn't care, my plans to build my own house with my fiance fell through, my fiance ended up cheating on me because I didn't treat her how she should be, etc, etc.. Everything in my life fell apart and it all came about because of my "depression".

Anyway, since my fiance cheated on me, I was always very bitter about it and blamed it entirely on her. I fell into deeper and deeper debt because I couldn't hold onto a job and I just didn't care about anything.

I decided that I could no longer take the medication i was on because it completely changed who I was. I was no longer the fun, happy person who all my friends knew and liked. I was no longer the boyfriend/fiance who my girlfriend fell in love with. I was an empty shell.

I stopped taking all of my medication cold turkey and decided that I would never touch it again. I felt fine for about a week after that, trying to stay positive, etc and then all of a sudden I had the worst withdrawal symptoms that I have ever experienced. I kept feeling as though i was being electrocuted from my toes all the way up to the top of my head and would nearly faint. I also couldn't last as long in the bedroom or even really care about that either.

Anyway, fast forward to now. Three weeks ago, my fiance and I had an argument over something small and we decided to break up. Another really bad decision but maybe this was the wake up call I've needed.

I think I've now realised all of our mistakes, etc but I'm not happy. I have a part time low paying job, I'm single and I miss my fiance.

My goals in life now are to start my own business, become fit and healthy, and to find love again, hopefully with my fiance, but if not then with someone who appreciates me for who I am.

Please let me know if you can help me achieve this. I can document my entire progress, etc for you and this blog.

Thanks in advance.

FOX

Hey FOX, 

Thanks for sending me your story and I am happy to see that you are taking part in the ALPHA BLADE processes.  After reading your letter I was able to see that you are very much like many who are in your position, very close to a breakthrough but so shadowed by the darkness of the present you find it difficult to see.  Unlike many, you recognize that thing ending is very close and in taking part in the Alpha Blade program I know that you realize the work END really means BEGINNING.

For whatever reason, you life took a turn that started to create the current "picture" you are living in.  It is so important that you have accurately portrayed this picture but it is equally important that you realize that the current picture is only that A PICTURE.  I like to see new participants in  ALPHA BLADE as clear, flexible, impressionable, paintable, layerable, multi sided, platforms that can easily be erased and giving the tools, of their own experience of success or failure, and a new 3D, real life picture can be created...just like the one you own now.

Once the ALPHA BLADE process is learned you will be able to successfully create and recreate a new picture at will and each picture will come with the "gifts" of deliberate, positive creation.  Taking the first step in accurately describing  your current picture and taking full responcibility for it is the very building blocks of the next phase of ALPHA BLADE, creating your perFACT life.

A perFACT life is very close to the definition os the actual work perfect.  Just as the definitive description implies, PERFECT means without room for change and when understood in this context "EVERYTHING IS PERFECT" as it is what it is.  The current picture you live with is perfect in all ways but using ALPHA BLADE makes the perfect picture PER-FACT as with each current frame of perfection you see you will realize your ability to change the current FACTS to become perfectly-imperfect.  Who wants a perfect picture, I would rather a work in progress without end.

I will start a profile for you under the name FOX.  We will actively work with you on this BLOG helping you prove to yourself and the ones watching that a PERFACT work in progress can be not only extremely accurate to the goals you want to accomplish but beyond the speed of light!  You will be training at the SPEED OF THOUGHT!

I will look over your letter and start addressing each one of your goals individually.

Rabbit

aka Mike

Who Am I? What Am I? Who Are You?

Many people do not know who I am or what my background is but I think it is important that I tell you and I will explain why. This is a kind of lesson in forgiveness and love. My life story is online in so many capacities it is crazy. I have been called an obsessive compulsive, bi-polar, high school drop out, among hundreds of other things. I have never disagreed with any of these words as every one of them is true. People go through their lives hiding who they are from society because they are worried what the world will think of them. As they try to hide their issues it becomes evident on their faces that they are not happy, how could they be? When they are constantly hiding from themselves and the people around them. It must feel like being a fugitive.

I like to refer to the movie 8 Mile staring Marshal Mathers when making this comparison. The character named Rabbit was a rapper. He was very poor, he lived in a trailer park, he had no father, he was mostly jobless, he could not hold a relationship, he was persecuted for all of this by the people around him and during the entire movie he tried to hide it from everyone. He would do rapping competitions on Weekend evenings where he would do a competition called "Freestyling". A freestyle battle is a contest in which two or more rappers compete or battle each other using freestyle rap. Each competitor's goal is to 'diss' their opponent through clever lyrics. Each rapper is giving a set among of time to rap against music being played in the background by a Disc Jokey.

Rabbit attend these battle every weekend and tried hard to hide who he was. He never could win or even make it through a battle until he became very clever. In a final battle against the best rapper there Rabbit, knowing the guy was going to use all of his terrible past against him, rapped about his faults first. Once he told the audience who he was he effectively took the power from the judgmental enemies and used it to prove not only he was honest and forthcoming but worthy of respect and forgiveness. The same kind of stuff the bible says.

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At some point in your life it is important to not only recognize who you are and the things that you endured in your lifetime. Hiding it from the world will only allow them to create their own, skewed, judgmental and purely evil views of you. If you say "This is who I am and look how I have changed my life for the better by recognizing it!" it will not allow the people around you to sit and chat about who and what you are. Once light is exposed to something shadows no longer lurk. I have gone through many things in my life that make up the person I am. I have carried many heavy crosses and was dealt my fair share of hardship but not for one second will I hide that from the world or allow them to pass judgement on me. I will wear it on my sleeve and when the world will have to recognize me for who I am, the true me, how much I went through and how I was able to endure and come out on top.

If everyone that knew me wrote down everything they thought I am I would need a name tag printed on an infinite banner. By the time the millions of persona views people have of me are wrapped around me I will still be me, 1, myself. Do not let your fear of what people think of you are scare you into hiding from who you are. State it loud and clear and let the world know from your mouth who you are. Picture yourself as a painting of flowers and each flower is a name. When someone tries to name one of your flowers exclaim loudly, I am not the flower I am the entire painting.

For those who sit and pass judgement on people, put a mirror in front of your own face...I am sure demons of equal, or worse, to those you cast out are staring you right back in the face.

Forgiveness and Love... What a novel idea?

The Equation EYE Solved

This is a interesting project I worked on. I wanted to show a step by step film/slideshow of how I used ALPHA BLADE to accomplish a project. My goal was to get a better understanding of Super Symmetry. In particle physics, supersymmetry (often abbreviated SUSY) is a symmetry that relates elementary particles of one spin to another particle that differs by half a unit of spin and are known as superpartners. In other words, in a supersymmetric theory, for every type of boson there exists a corresponding type of fermion, and vice-versa. It makes things easier to understand when I make a model of what I am studying. In this case I used a book aptly called THE EQUATION THAT COULD NOT BE SOLVED to be the predominate item in my model I created. It was a fun process and I learned a lot along the way. In the end I accomplished everything I wanted to plus I found out many new things that I picked up during the journey.


This slide show will show the step by syep method I used


Here is a fun video using what I created to play with symmetry.

The Incredible Author Mommy Janet!

Video of Jen as of Today, July 17
Day 31 on The Alpha+Blade Program

Today I have a special treat for the viewers. This is one of Janets stories from her collection she has been working on over the past few weeks. There is a video, a picture of the story and the painting she created the story by. I have also included the text for those who would like to copy it. Enjoy and keep us in your prayers. I will have more on the progress of Janet tomorrow. I also will be introducing two new writers who will be using the Alpha Blade program.

Michael





It was Ash Wednesday and Mommy Janet took infant Yenny to be blessed by ashes for the first time. Little Yenny was so excited by this super special moment in time.

Mommy Janet brought Yenny home after their long day at church.

Mommy Janet decided to bring Little Yenny into their secret garden right by their rock lined lagoon.

Little Yenny secretly tucked herself in her favorite purple blanket and fell asleep fast. Mommy Janet tucked her in even better and prayed with her maternal instinct that Yenny would have God with her in her dreams.

As Mommy Janet looked all around her and noticed all of the vivid colors of the huge array of lovingly, planted flowers she knew this was the special Ash, First Wednesday she so planned and knew only God could possibly be with her.

Keeping the Ball Bouncing...My ALPHA BLADE diary updates

My Personal Diary: July 2, 12:00pm>>>Remembering to Remember


Xtremegamer: Shit I really need something like this at my current point in life.
Doublelongdaddy: The point is you never needed it as you have always had it. I am not trying to give you something new, or something that I created....I am only trying to help you remember that you knew it all along, you only forgot.
Threak: the Source has always been readily available to you. Somewhere along the line we have separated ourselves and awareness from it. DLD is going to help you get reconnected to it... once you make the reconnection it's going to be awesome.

My Response

That separation can be seen in larger ways and when we become aware of these detachments we become aware of our own life-force. When you consider science and religion, with a un-bias, rational mind, it is plain to see that both branches of knowledge are saying the exact thing but the distance between the 2 is so broad and clouded with mis-education that the simplicity of it's original meaning is lost. The law of conservation of energy states that: the total amount of energy in any isolated system remains constant but cannot be recreated, although it may change forms, e.g. friction turns kinetic energy into thermal energy. In thermodynamics, the first law of thermodynamics is a statement of the conservation of energy for thermodynamic systems, and is the more encompassing version of the conservation of energy. In short, the law of conservation of energy states that energy can not be created or destroyed, it can only be changed from one form to another. If you ask a theologian who or what God is you will be likely to get an answer very similar to the law of conservation of energy. In short God can not be created or destroyed, it can only be changed from one form to another. God has always been and always will be, the same thing Science is saying.

These divisions are also prevalent in the separation of countries, language, color, relationships, gender, essentially any system that has a positive and negative magnetic force will show a division (great or small) I realized a great separation in myself some years ago and the separation was one of self-realization. I always knew everything I needed to know in order to get anything I wanted but somewhere along the way I forgot. A good story I use to show this example is a cute one. It is appropriate too as much of what I am teaching in my new book is based on age regression and reeducation in the spirit of a child. Read on:)

There was a young couple who had a 4 year old son. The young boys name was Will. The couple got pregnant and Will became scared and jealous that things would change if the new baby came along. His worry was evident to the couple as he was very vocal. They knew in time he would become used to the idea but it did sadden them. After some months they gave birth to beautiful girl named Eva. Since Eva had her own room the couple worried about her sleeping so they purchased baby monitors so they could hear what was happening in her room while she slept. One evening, while they were watching tv, they heard footsteps crossing. They were listening to Will as he crept into Eva's room. Their first instinct was to run upstairs to make sure no bad came about but they did not, they sat and listened. As they heard him creep up to the crib they could tell Will was lowering the crib gate. Soon they heard a whisper. Will said "pssss, Eva, wake up. I want to ask you something." The couple turned up their monitor to hear better then they heard Will ask Eva a question, "Eva, please tell me about God, I'm starting to forget."

The story is meant to invoke a realization that Will was still aware of his power of being a child, a power that allowed him to do so much magic. A magic of imagination that allowed the child to have and do all he wanted. You see Will was forgetting this knowledge because of the ill-education of the world around him and he knew that Eva still knew as Eva was so much closer to God's knowledge because she had yet to forget.

The Alpha+Blade system will teach you how to remember all the things you have forgot. Once you can remember and apply the magic that has been with you for all time you will see and do things you never dreamed possible.

Think about being a child for a minute. I can remember when I was young getting a large cardboard box. Some friends and I cut holes in the box and colored to box with crayons and markers. We created a bright green jeep from the cardboard box. We all got inside and we drove all over the universe. We saw the great pyramids, we drove through the Caspian Sea, we explored the planets and stars, we explored so many places and we brought back so many souvenirs. Rocks from Mars, stardust from Alpha-Centuri, sand from Egypt and water from the great sea. Within hours we had created this incredible journey to the ends of the universe and we never left that cardboard box....GET THE POINT?:)

I promise you that the Alpha-Blade System will show you how to take a cardboard box and make anything you want.



Little fella: 
DLD you have a very powerful mindset the way that you can turn your life around has really given me motivation as I am trying to change something in my life at this current time. I like the way that you have done it as well I am going to follow this and I can not wait for the alpha blade to be released.

My Response:

July 4th, as promised, I will have the BLOG site up and running. Thanks for your support.

Michael

My Personal Diary: June 29th, 1:11pm>>>Adam and Eve the Electrons

goinfor11x7;306362: I've watched you grow and transform yourself. You let it all hang out. Why not? It's only the fear-filled and the shame-based who don't allow themselves to do this. You are my inspiration, as always, good one.

Your art work is remarkably creative, as are you.

I surely understand how it's about pulling it all together. Our thinking is remarkably similar in this regard.

I understand the anger. I understand the self-destructive impulses. I understand the deep depression. I understand the relief when it is lifted. Most people I have known with your kinds of talents have these swings--it comes with the territory. So as deep as the valleys are, the creative heights can be equally dazzling.

Thank you, brother, for all you have given and will continue to give to us.

My Response
We have discussed these things in great detail and we have always been on the same page. I spend every day with my Son and half the kids from his school:) (well feels like half) but I am surrounded with children every day. On the weekends I like to have them come stay with me at the ALPHA+BLADE STUDIO. The studio inspires many facets of education as it is filled with a great library, a inspiring art studio, a music recording studio a wonderful theatre and a place to conduct experiments and do projects. It is kind of like being at Xavier's School For Gifted children. We discuss many subjects and every weekend we explore something new and in the spirit of curiosity we have a lot of fun.

Last night we watched Wall-E and Eve, the new Disney film. The film is loosely based on the first few books of Genesis so when we made it home to the Studio we discussed everyones view on the film. I highly recommend seeing it, Pixar does an incredible job with the animation and the messages are very well delivered to any age.

WHile sitting around the theatre area, watching Deja Vu, starring Denzel Washington and Paula Patton, one of my sons friends asked to read the Bible. We discussed the story of Adam and Eve and what the Bible was trying to say. His question was more about knowledge and why it was the very thing that dispelled the couple from the garden. He also asked if ALPHA+BLADE was like eating from the tree of knowledge because of how easy it is for us to transform ourselves or gain what ever we desire through creative, deliberate creation. This question was one I struggled with when I was starting ALPHA+BLADE, it seemed as though I could pretend anything into existence and quite frankly, the knowledge scared me. I wondered why other people did not use this knowledge and I started to think maybe I shouldn't. Just like most of the modern world, I perverted the message to the point of self-denial and an acceptance of a miserable, unaware existence.

So he asked me what did the message mean to me. I view Adam and Eve with the highest regard and it is a very important lesson in the ALPHA+BLADE program. When the Garden of Eden was first created and Adam and Eve were given domain over the entire place they were told that they had already known everything, they did not need to learn more because they already knew. The tree of Life was available to them and the tree would give them eternal life but God also put the tree of Good and Evil (the Tree of Knowledge) in the Garden too. This tree symbolized God's mind and refraining from eating from it was a way of Adam and Eve to show a commitment to the trust they had in God and his words that they needed nothing more than the perfect knowledge they already possessed.

Like most humans today, Adam and Eve became ignorant through their own education and essentially forgot that they already knew everything they needed to know, well at least everything they needed to know to live in eternal bliss. In the forgetting of this self-realization of perfection they chose to eat the fruit of the tree of KNOWLEDGE. Their hope was to find out what God was hiding from them, what knowledge God had that they did not. They fell victim to the serpent, the snake representing evil, and his promises that there was more beyond their knowledge failing to see that God was only protecting them from the bad of the world. When they tried to peek into the mind of God their world collapsed into a place surrounded by human error...the magic dispersed.

If you understand Quantum Mechanics you will understand the miracle of the electron. An electron is an elementary particle, a very tiny or quantum sized particle. It is independent and it is essentially one. It is kind of like a marble, a single bit of energy...kind of like a human. A single electron, can become 2 electrons and go from being a particle to becoming a wave. "How" it is done is the mystery of Quantum Physics and when a scientist tries to "peek" the electron realizes it is being watched and goes back to acting like a particle.

The magnitude and association of the book of Adam and EVe and Quantum Mechanics is identical on a metaphorical level (in my opinion on every level) . Just like Eve and Adam trying to peek on the mind of God and the scientist peeking on the electron result in a collapse of the magic and a reality is established. Prior to viewing either God's mind, or the electron for this matter, all possibilities are in super position, meaning anything is possible. We decide the outcome and that is a magic we have always possessed...we only forgot. Trying to find out "how" it is done is where we fail...this is trying to eat from a tree of knowledge we already posses. Quite the paradox.

I like to see my past, negative experience (crime, ,hate, violence, shit like that) as the very basis for my ability to effectively speak on how to change these things. I could not have become the positive person I am if I did not have my negative experience to contrast it. How the hell can a psychiatrist tell me I am Bi-Polar if he is not himself? He can't. I can't have the appreciation for my positive change unless I once lived it's opposite. Who can know red without knowing blue? Everything I have gained is in sharp contrast to what I did not have. The way I got it is through the magic of the universe and my realization of myself and the power that resides in me.

Michael

PS: This gallery is based purely on the Garden of Eden Video. My newest gallery on the Reunification of Adam and Eve and their need to have children, which I will get up today on video (if you are local it is on display in Starbucks in Northampton, MA) until the end of June.)

Thanks again for the support

My Personal Diary: Where I am and what I am doing

My Personal Diary: Where I am and what I am doing PLEASE READ OFTEN

Over the last 3 years I have been working on the Alpha+Blade project. This project coincides with when a very important relationship ended in my life. May 4th, 2004 is when Jennifer left me because of so many issues in her, my and our lives. When earlier, in 2005-06, I was going to release Alpha+Blade I thought I was ready but was wrong. I had so much more to learn before I could make the website, book and film public.

The Alpha+Blade series of media sources are based solely on the things I learned during the last 3 years and how they apply to my past and future. On May 4th, 2004 my girl left me. She is the love of my life and losing her was one of largest travesties I have endured. Her departure not only destroyed me on a romantic level but it infected every other part of my life. Most of my time, at that point, was spent on MOS and I let every other part of myself wane and wither. The things Jennifer, my son Armando and every other person who loved me, that made up Michael Salvini as the happy, magical person I was became distorted and disreguarded. Every aspect of those qualities became hidious and I was quite blind to their dimisee. I could not see what had happened to me, I was convinced the rest of the world was wrong and they were against me. I truly could not see the errors of my way and because of this I was left alone to myself, losing everything that was ever important to me.

The story progresses from there, as many may already know, and I essentially deliberately, created my life back into existence. I was left in a apartment that I had ripped every wall from. The place Jennifer and I lived was reduced to a 2 floor warehouse. No bathroom, kitchen, rooms, closets, nothing...four walls just staring at a nigga I credit that line to the Ghetto Boyz but it is soooo true. It was me, myself and I in the middle of a framed out room.

I could not bare the thoughts of staying in the apartment (which later becomes the Alpha+Blade Studios) so I jumped on a plane to Southern, Florida. This is where my business partner and best friend, Jaz, resides. I spent the next 4 months living with Jaz for 3 months and approximately 4 weeks on my own. I only brought my clothes, books and some notebooks and pens. On the flight I made a list of the things I needed to change in my world. The list was longer than my cock Anyway, over this time I educated myself on many subject and essentially started a system of self education that led me to creating the book and it's other outlets. When I returned to my home in Massachusetts (the one with no walls) well, the house now was worse...there were no longer utilities.

I could not stay there so I moved in with my Ex-Wife and Son. I spent about 6 months there until I was asked to leave, due mainly to my extreme depression and obsession with making some huge changes. During my stay Armand and I worked a lot on the Alpha+Blade project. We filled note books with the changes I was making and how I was doing it. He was able to help me focus and study the many books I wanted to know. We did series of experiments and worked tirelessly on the book and solving the laundry list of problems in my life.

When I left his home I had close to 10 college notebooks filled. I am not sure why I chose to write it down instead of typing it on my computer. I guess the freedom of the pen and paper made a greater companion than the heaviness of a impersonal computer. This also allowed me to quickly scribble drawings and equations on ideas that came to mind. When in Florida, the biggest problem was the massive collection of note and school books that were accumulating with great speed and weight. I spent a couple weeks living in the wilderness when in Florida. Since I was living outdoors the books became cumbersome. I also needed to worry about them becoming weathered, as I was outside during Hurricane Katrina. Funny enough, after Katrina hit many of the great, palm trees were uprooted leaving massive caves of shelter under tham. I spent about 2 weeks living in one tree by a lake As much as it seems like it would have sucked, it did not. I learned a lot there

Anyway upon moving back into my Massachusetts empty warehouse I went into a deep depression. I did not work for a few months and basically paced the bare, bleached white, floors only occasionally stopping long enough to scribble a picture, words or some other thing on the floor. It was a few months before I decided to start work again but when I did....I REALLY DID!

I started to campaign fund raisers for the apartment to become Alpha+Blade Studios and raised enough money to complete it (plus feed me and my family.) I thank you people who supported this project as if it were not for you non of this would have manifested itself. A very special thanks to the major contributors who helped raise more than $40,000 at a time that I had no income. That money served a great purpose and it was a large part of fertilizer of the great seed that has grown into the Alpha+Blade systems.

While I built the Alpha+Blade Studio I did a majority of my work in Starbucks across the East Coast. This is the reason I entitled the book "THE BALL, Conversations at Starbucks the Alpha+Blade Project" The Ball was a name my Son came up with as he felt when we exchanged ideas and answers we were passing a great ball of energy. Since most of my conversations took place in the local Starbucks Coffee Houses I decided to credit the people. I also needed to include the root of the Alpha+Blade people, you guys and the things you taught me. The title is long but I am all about making things bigger, longer and greater.

Essentially the Alpha+Blade book and film are a set of steps that will show people how to get exactly what they want in life. The methods are a seamless entanglement of every subject from science, math and religion to physics, motivation and philosophy. I wrote the book in the spirit of a tragic comedy but I am sure there will be something for everyone in there. The steps are very basic and proved hardest in finishing this project is to present these methods in the simplest way.... essentially ABC/123.

Some of what I have accomplished are:

Alpha+Blade Studios

An offer to write a thesis for Princeton University based on one of my notebooks on mathematics and physics. (I have an 8th grade education.)

Losing 140 pounds in 4 months, with maximum body mass to muscle.

Completing 4 books on Physics, Mathematics, a Autobiography and a perpetual graphic novel.

Completed two full art galleries and received national exposure.

Made MOS the largest Men's Sexual Health Site in the World.

Acquired 2 original Pablo Picasso's for almost no money with full provence and COA.

Collected 2 of my favorite automobiles (again using no money)

Made thousands of friends and connections.

I received property in Washington DC, South Beach and The Virgin Islands (again using no money, I actually received money when I did it)

1000's of other things but mainly my relationship with Armando, my Son and Jennifer, my fiancé is again, reunited but at a level that is beyond any I could every dream.

Recently I have been very busy assembling a team to create the production of the Alpha+Blade Systems. I have been doing interviews and organizing the last parts of the project. Again, I will have the site and forums up for free and they will feature everything in the film and book. I already know the book and film will be a huge financial success so giving away the information is a joy.

I thank all of you for all of your continuing support and I will update this thread here and in the Alpha+Blade BLOG over the next few dates. I was going to launch the websites on the 4th of July but I may start the BLOG early.

I hope everyone can forgive my absence in MOS but I feel as though everything you could ever know about your sexuality already exists in you as it exists here. Every answer you need exists within this site but I still love answering the questions over and over....It makes me feel needed I will try to post daily and catch up on all the inquiries I have missed.

Michael